Wed March 30 2011

I got my application for college done and I just have to wait for May 1st before I can register for classes.

   School was never my strong suit ,the academics I was good at, it was the interacting with peers I had trouble with.Always saying the wrong things,never being able to read body language ,not knowing if the pretty girl in English class liked me or not etc...I was always in the principal`s office getting suspended for fighting or cussing out someone or skipping school because I was bored with it.Needless to say it was a lonely,scary,and confusing time for me.So on my sixteenth birthday I quit school and got my GED and have been floundering ever since.I would meet with any type of resistance and walk away not knowing how or if i could get through it.So I have a life full of regrets and unfinished business.I pray that I can see this school thing through because I deserve to have a good life. I just want to move on with my life.

       

Tuesday March 29,2011

It is a week away from the anniversary of my dad`s death.This  time of year is always bad for me ,I have gotten mad,sad,meloncholy,depressed and  all of the above in the past.I just can`t seem to past this time of year without some type of mood or attitude change.I am on a new medicine this year .I pray that it will be strong enough to get me through this time.

Living with myself has never been easy the outbursts of anger and times of self doubt and pity have plauged  me my entire life.Putting a label of Asperger`s does not change those things it just makes it easier to accept them and work through those feelings of inadequacy.

Today was an o.k. day.I finished my financial aid paper work and sent it off now all I have to do is contact the school and go from there.Wish me luck.

    Thank you and God bless you,
                                           Don Parnell

Monday March 28,2011

Growing up I was told that I could do anything I put my mind to,but to someone like me who learns more by the combination of all three learning styles it was only part of the story like trying to write a report on a book that you have only read the first 10 chapters of .It is hard to do with any degree of success.
  
  I had a terrible night`s sleep last night up early went back to bed slept late, lazed around most the day found it hard to do anything .I feel the depression coming on again and I want it not too.I love my family too much for them to suffer through this again.

  I will write more tomorrow.
                                 Thank you for reading.God bless you,
                                                                Don Parnell

Introductions and salutations.

  March 27,2011